Well week two weigh in bought me good result of a 2lb loss and bringing my total to 7lb so I made my half a stone point already! whoop whoop! what a brilliant feeling and I'm proving to myself again that I can make this happen!
I only cycled 3 days last week but I'm going to aim for the full 5 this week as I've set myself a target of a 2-3lb loss on Saturday so fingers crossed I can do it again. I know I can.
Thinking last week about why I'm fat (yes I used the "F" word, it doesn't bother me) has also got me thinking over the weekend about why I'm now losing weight and what I have to gain from losing. Here's a few reasons I've come up with so far-
- My health- Obvious priority number 1, without it I'd be in serious trouble. I've never really suffered from any obesity related illness, such as high blood pressure or diabetes, but I have an injured knee that starts screaming at me as I get bigger. It screams at me now when I cycle but I know that's because I'm doing it good and strengthening it. Either way I know that my size is no good for my health and its just better for me to be slimmer, at only 5 foot 1 tall my weight is definitely not healthy.
- Steve- Now my beloved husband has never made my weight an issue. I was 3st smaller than I am now when I first met me and he loves me just as much at this size as he did then (atleast I hope so lol) but I feel like I'm not the wife he deserves at the moment. He shouldn't have to defend me when people stare or snigger in the street as we are a bit of an odd looking pair. He's 6ft 2 and muscular where I'm completely the opposite. I want to be able to walk beside him with my head held high and knowing that people are looking for all the right reasons. He's forever telling me how proud he is of me making these changes, no matter how many times I've tried and failed, and I feel like I owe it to him to lose the weight as a thank you for all of his unconditional and never-ending support and love. He's a man in a million and whatever fitness related crazy I want he goes out of his way to make sure I have it, Insanity- got it, Zumba boxset- have it and as one of my anniversary presents next month he's buying me a FitBit so that I can keep track of all the exercise I'm doing. He's my biggest fan and my truest critic. If he sees me slipping up he'll call me on it and if anything it makes me love him more. I will make him proud.
- A baby- Now before any of my family read this and get any ideas, no we're not trying for a baby yet! But as we've now been married a year obviously babies do pop up in conversation from time to time and we've made no secret of the fact that we will be having children at some point in the not too distant future. what does play on my mind though is the fact that I want to be rid of most of this weight before we do get preggers as I want to have a healthy pregnancy and to be an active, healthy mummy for my child. As previously mentioned I already have an injured knee and whacking my current weight and then baby weight on it really wouldn't be a good idea plus I'm always seeing programmes on TV about larger people having babies and how dangerous it can be and really don't want that for me or my unborn baby. Also Steve has expressed concern over me having baby at this size saying he doesn't want my size to cause complications and, worst case scenario, to leave him holding a baby without me around, yes it may sound far fetched but being as overweight as I am what's not to say that that couldn't be a possibility? Having a baby is a massive strain on a womans body and it brings along things I have never experienced and some things I don't even know about so to give my child the best start in life I want to be as healthy as possible.
Until tomorrow xxxx
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